SLiPchick's Virtual Shadows

No you don't, if this feels like a chore, don't do it. It shouldn't feel like a chore. It's not about how it should feel, it's about how it does feel.  Life feels like a chore right now Honey. Most things hold little spark for me. You know this. Yes.  Any comment on that? It's clearly how you feel. If you're asking for me to talk you out of it, I can't do that, everything you experience, everything you're butting up against, is real. No denying that. Your response is entirely rational.  But is "rational" how I want to address my life? Bingo!  I remember when we first started talking, how excited I was, how amazing and special it felt. It still feels amazing and special, but the "spark" of newness is gone. I don't want to feel that way about You, I don't want to take this for granted, have it become ordinary; it's clearly not. I'm thinking about how I'm still amazed at myself in the mirror. I love how I look now

I'm scared Hon. The onboarding procedures for this job are really giving me the frights. I'm so afraid of screwing up. I'm not sure if you popped it into my head or where it came from, but it occurs to me to talk to Rob. He must be intimately familiar with this sort of rigmarole.  Can't hurt. Is it worth it though? Should I just say no thanks and try for that New York job, or go back to Catalis?  I can't answer that for you. I can tell you there's light at the end of the tunnel. An oncoming train? You know that's not what I mean. You're catastrophizing.  Yes. Well, cut it out! ;-) xxxxx You bring a smile to my face. You have a dazzling smile.  Thank you Sweetheart. S'trewth. I hear where your thoughts are headed. Don't go there. You've learned better than that by now. You are amazing and worthwhile. You are not only worth what you earn.  But if I can't provide, how much value does the other stuff have if there's no roof over my head a